“Never go on trips with anyone you do not love.” Ernest Hemingway

Truer words have never been spoken. They’re especially poignant as the trip middle-aged Jacob Will was embarking upon was a solo endeavor. And it would be safe to say, Jacob did not love himself.

This journey was also laced with no small amount of irony as what precipitated it was the suicide of Jacob’s best friend. Just like Hemingway, who he was to encounter later on. While Jacob was not intent on his own suicide, he did have to commit eleven little deaths of his own. What would Ernest have said about that?

There was no way for this Will, until…

In the absence of a legal will, how are the last requests of the deceased to be addressed? Would a letter be considered a will? What if that letter requests something so seemingly horrible as to make one question their own life? And what if that letter was written by someone about to take their own life?

That’s what Jacob Will (no pun intended) was faced with when his best friend left a request – that of committing eleven little deaths of his own. On paper, one death should do it, right? Why then eleven? And what was Jacob’s role in unknowingly creating his future?

And, were Jacob to do it, just how would he go about it?

That’s a lot of “ands” and “whats”. And he’s just getting started.



What do you do when you can’t get it done anymore?

For Farry Poland, that was easy – take your own life. For his best friend Jacob Will, that was never a consideration. In fact, not much was ever under consideration for him. But before Farry’s death, he laid in place a plan to be revealed only after his funeral, for Jacob to get his life together. And while the details of this plan were sketchy at best, the outcome was not. What would ensue would change his life forever.